Loner

It's a very weird feeling. On one hand it is the most amazing opportunity I could ever be so easily presented with- for the second time. Yet on the other hand i feel like i have been sent to exile to simply wait while being judged. I feel like that's all i am doing here. WAIT to get picked up for castings. WAIT while we drive there. WAIT to check if we have the right location. WAIT at the casting. WAIT to hear if you got the job or not. WAIT for things to start happening. So while i wait, i think and i dream, I daydream and i stress. I read and i drink coffee and i do everything except for painting which is really what i want to do. I think I might be going slowly mad here too- which to me is quite hilarious. Spending so much time alone should be good for you- but when you are so restricted from access from the people you are used to seeing it really does your head in in ways that are seriously abnormal. I haven't started talking to myself yet but i will not be surprised if i get back to NYC and someone catches me doing just that...

My loneliness is killing me

I must confess I still believe

When I'm not with you I lose my mind

Give me a sign

Hit me baby one more time

Oh baby, baby

The reason I breathe is you

Boy you got me blinded

Oh pretty baby

There's nothing that I wouldn't do

It's not the way I planned it

Show me how you want it to be

STORMIE SEES

Like Banksy X Barry McGee, Perth's wonder graff artist strikes again and again.

Check him out: http://www.stormie.com.au/

Nancy Pants

R.I.P NANCY SPERO

you rock

L.C

This is my Life Coach, LoCo.

She likes to read Oxford Dictionary's 'Humorous Quotations' a lot.

She rocks, so we rock.

Just a little Warning

"Its all coming out now"- 2008

I'm not sure why no body warns you about that time in your life when you hit your early 20's and things seem to get even harder than when you went through adolescence. You are finishing university, or changing degrees, growing up, traveling, thinking more, loving more, learning more, dealing with more, freaking out, climbing up, and then on top of that this external pressure seems to drop on you from somewhere and it pushes you to DECIDE. NOW! You are old enough! You should know what you are going to be doing with your life!! Stop fucking around! And this time in your life is so scary- because what if you don't know? What if you think you know but you aren't sure you are on the right path? What if you are just scared? WHY the hell does no one warn you prior to this!?!? Just a little "Oh by the way- teenage years are rough, but it's pretty cool because you are sheltered and your mum still does your washing and the only future you stress about is then end of the term or your next coming exam. Your 20's are harder because you actually have to deal with the REAL future".

Its amazing this time- it shaped who you are and shows you your true colours as they come out in full force. This is a powerful time. But how come nobody tells you how freaky it can be? You find loves, you loose loves, you aren't sure what is right. You aren't really sure which way to go and on top of that you know that these decisions aren't as casual as the ones that you made a few years ago. Crunch time? Crazy time? Crucial time? Creative time? Who knows.

(my time)

bang bang

Across the Universe

Sunrise, Africa.

What would you do if the sun didn't come up tomorrow? Honestly. If you woke up and the sun just forgot to rise. The birds forgot to come out and the ways of the world changed completely. Who would you run to? Who would you think about? Im thinking about what's really important in my life right now. Im facing questions about what I really want out of life and in what direction I want my future to go. I have dreams and whimsical fantasies. I have grand ideas, I have thoughts that keep me up at night and visions of the life that I want that run through my head. But can they be done? I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow- something amazing or something terrible or nothing at all? Is that impossible? It's exciting and petrifying at the same time and this mix of emotions is starting to pull me into different pieces, except I'm not to sure which way they are going and where they will be tomorrow.

"You make me feel like I belong under the sun

You'll never grow old

Because you're forever young

And you know that you got my tomorrow baby

Today and yesterday

Believe that you've got my tomorrow baby

I'll hold you close as far as I can see"

"If there is love"- Citizen Cope

Aurora Borealis, Alaska.

I had a plan once. To go and see the northern lights in Alaska with a boy I liked. We sat in bed one day watching YouTube videos of the moving illusions. Swirling and fantastic- we had to venture to the ends of the earth to bear witness. They are a geometric, magnetic, solar, energetic occurrence and I wanted to be a part of it.

We never ended up going- but that doesn't make the lights stop shining. Just because you can't see them right now doesn't mean they aren't moving and flowing and changing for you.

Is this my future? Is it out there already and moving around my present decisions? Are you in there with me?

The Milky Way

In the sunscreen song it tells you not to be guilty if you don't know what to do with your life. Sometimes all i want to do is run away. I'm not sure what from. But I don't want to become one of those New Yorkers who can't accept change and has impatience embedded in their DNA. I want to be simple. Without this crap that surrounds us. I want to be cliche and lie in the grass and walk everywhere bear foot with bells on my ankles and flowers in my messy hair. I want to forget the things that made life so complicated yet ruled my universe and tended to dictate my existence. I want to relinquish addictions and trust that what i was doing was right. I want to hang on your every word after living a lifetime with you. I want to be rich even with nothing. I want nothing more than to hold you and feel like I desired nothing else from life. I want you to see me change and see me grow and love every moment of it and still love me even if it didn't happen. I want you to hold my hand through this. I want to be old and still get butterflies. I want to be by your side and be there for you.

"when you're on the outside baby and you can't get in

i will show you you're so much better than you know

when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again

i will find you darling and i will bring you home

and if you want to cry

i am here to dry your eyes

and in no time

you'll be fine"

"By your side"- Sade

I want to wander.

I want to be.

I want to wonder.

Sunset, Australia.

ROSCOE STREET RASCALS

magic

A bubble and a kiss. A flower and a wish. She is hiding and waiting for you to dance with her.

Pour Vous.

(photo by Derek Kettela)

Quietly while you were asleep

The moon and i were talking

I asked that she'd always keep you protected

She promised you her light

That so you so gracefully carry

You bring your light and shine like morning

And then winds pull the clouds across the moon

Your light fills the darkest room

And i can see the miracle that keeps us from falling

She promised all the sweetest gifts

That only the heavens could bestow

You bring your light and shine like morning

And as you gracefully give

Her light, as long as you live

I'll always remember this moment

-Sade, The Sweetest Gift

cheeky monkey

There's something really liberating in being immature and naughty.

Creating trouble and being silly.

Not the kind of trouble that really lands you in hot water but the type of action that makes you laugh and pretend you are 7 years old again and you could get away with anything. I think people have forgotten how to be carefree and sly. It's so much when you relinquish stuffy maturity and just do and say what you want. There's no time like the present- so get in touch with your inner child and set them free!

Everyone Changes

ANNIKA

LOVE LOVE LOVE

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SCREAM!